introduction

i am british, married an australian... we met in the states & are both designers.

we have two boys ~ oscar, 6 & flynn 4, lots of pets & live in an old house ~ this blog is the craziness that happens day to day! opinions, reviews, places to go, situations & everything else in between!

Wednesday, April 28, 2010

[ origins of the peace symbol ]






sooooooo... this is one of the most recognizable & widely used symbols in the world (& one of my personal favorites!) can you imagine being able to say... i designed that logo!!!! mind blowing!

it was designed in 1958, by gerald herbert holtom, b 20th january 1914 d 18th september 1985, specifically for the anti-nuclear movement.

gerald holtom was a designer & artist who graduated from the royal college of arts* & was also a conscientious objector in world war II. he showed his preliminary sketches to a small group of people in the peace news office in north london, england & to the direct action committee against nuclear war, one of several smaller organizations that set up CND.**

the direct action committee had planned what was to be the first major anti-nuclear march, from london to aldermaston, where british nuclear weapons were manufactured. it was on that march, over the 1958 easter weekend that the symbol first appeared in public. five hundred cardboard lollipops on sticks were produced. half were black on white and half white on green. like the church’s liturgical colors change over easter these colors changed 'from winter to spring, from death to life.'

gerald holtom, explained that the symbol incorporated the semaphore letters N nuclear & D disarment. he later wrote to hugh brock, editor of peace news, explaining the genesis of his idea in greater, more personal depth. 'i was in despair. deep despair. i drew myself: the representative of an individual in despair, with hands palm outstretched outwards and downwards in the manner of goya’s peasant before the firing squad. i formalized the drawing into a line and put a circle round it.

eric austin of kensington CND, made the first badges using white clay with the symbol painted black. they were distributed with a note explaining that in the event of a nuclear war, these fired pottery badges would be among the few human artifacts to survive the nuclear inferno.

he added his own interpretation of the design, 'the gesture of despair had long been associated with the death of man and the circle with the unborn child.'

bayard rustin, a close associate of martin luther king had come over from the US in order to take part in that first march. he took the symbol back to the United States where it was used on civil rights marches. later it appeared on anti-vietnam war demonstrations and was even seen daubed in protest on their helmets by american GIs. simpler to draw than the picasso peace dove, it became known, first in the US and then round the world as the peace symbol. it has appeared on the walls of prague when the soviet tanks invaded in 1968, on the berlin wall, in sarajevo and belgrade, on the graves of the victims of military dictators from the greek colonels to the argentinian junta, & in east timor.

it has never been copyrighted. REPEAT: IT HAS NEVER BEEN COPYRIGHTED! no one has to pay or to seek permission before they use it. a TRUE symbol of freedom, it is a free for all.
(WOW! is it one of those catch-22's, if it wasn't free it wouldn't have become so popular?) they have no intention of copyrighting it either.

this of course sometimes leads to its use, or misuse, in circumstances that CND and the peace movement find distasteful. it is often exploited for commercial, advertising or generally fashion purposes. come on commercial users, stop being greedy!! & make a donation, any money received is used for CND’s peace education and information work.



*The Royal College of Art (often abbreviated RCA) is the world’s only wholly postgraduate
university of art & design.

**The Campaign for Nuclear Disarmament (CND) is an anti-nuclear organization that advocates unilateral nuclear disarmament by the United Kingdom, and for international nuclear disarmament and tighter international arms regulation through agreements such as the Nuclear Non-Proliferation Treaty. it opposes military action that may result in the use of nuclear, chemical or biological weapons and the building of nuclear power stations in the UK. its chairperson is kate hudson.




Wednesday, April 21, 2010

[ RIP nikon ]

sooooooo... i take my boys for a picnic at one of my most favorite places in NJ, the howell living farm. it's a wonderful place & i urge anyone that hasn't been to go. for me personally it has great karma & i feel instantly mellow there.

ironic that it is there that this incident should occur!

after finishing our picnic, i ask my 4 year old, oscar, to guard mommy's camera, while i put stuff back in the car. oscar always responds really well to jobs that have an touch of responsibility to them. my nikon D80 was sitting on the picnic table along with my phone & a very important looking oscar was watching them.

as i return to the table the boys see i have towels & wellies for them to go wading in the stream & they get really excited. oscar climbs up on the table & tries to jump down... you know what's coming. as i replay the next seconds in my mind i'm not sure who reached the ground first, oscar or the camera, all i know is that it holted me in my tracks while my eyes were tried to focus on the grass. oscar was repeating sorry mom, while i bent down to pick up the 18-135 lens, which wasn't attached to the camera body anymore & was in 3 pieces... anyone who knows me will understand the tragedy of this & why i had tears in my eyes.

this camera was a splurge 2 years ago that i would never have got if my husband mike hadn't bought it for me & i love love loved it from the first click. it goes everywhere with me... it went everywhere with me...

BUT... what am i going to do... oscar felt bad, i know he didn't do it on purpose, i know he'd be more careful next time. i put the pieces back in the car & we continued to the stream. i was so upset that i kind of went numb & of course all these things were happening that i would normally be clicking away at... for the first time in my 10 years in the states i saw a snake, it swan right by us & i'm sure it winked! then further downstream big woolly sheep were doing crazy jumps in the water. my lovely friend sent me uplifting text messages, i really needed & wanted to talk about it, but i didn't want oscar to hear me, so texting was perfect.

like a bad break up i'd look at the clock & work out how long ago my camera was in perfect working order ~ CUCKOO!!

this camera took some wonderful photos, i really enjoyed it & will miss it terribly!








Saturday, April 17, 2010

[ the chair ]




sooooooo... i live in a really pretty rural part of new jersey & my journey, everyday, used to take me on a little road, past a small field that has a chair in the middle of it. it's a wooden chair & is there all year long. sometimes it isn't visible because the grass grows so tall around it.

there is something really comforting about it being there. i've taken photos & seen lots of others doing the same.

one year it fell apart, but i was really relieved to see that it had been replaced by another. then when that one broke another... & another.

so as i drove past i'd start to wonder the significance... maybe it was a symbol for the crop to do well, or to ward off evil spirits... or maybe it was there in memory of someone, that was the idea i like the most... maybe the owner put it out there to remember his dead father who loved the field & maybe the dead father came to have a sit on it sometimes.

i'd craft all these stories for it's meaning & obviously other people must be getting something from it too.

i thought to myself if i see anyone coming out of the house nearby, or in the field i'm going to stop & ask. but there was never anyone there until.... the other day.

my husband, mike, the boys & i were driving along & i'd just finished saying that i wanted to find out when there was movement at the end of the long driveway.

we'd already gone past but mike being the kind of guy he is had already begun to turn around without me needing to ask. he knows what i'm like when i have something in my head.

i felt a bit silly as we drove up the long gravelly driveway & decided to walk the last bit. so i hop out & go up to an elderly lady, introduce myself, she was very gracious & quite lovely about the whole thing. when i finally got to the question so i was wondering what it meant... i felt kind of excited that i was about to find out! she replied it doesn't mean anything....

i couldn't believe it... or rather i didn't want to believe it... she told me her husband came home from a yard sale with this chair & she asked him what are you going to do with that! it looked odd in their sitting room so he put it in the field... & that's it!

unbelievably, though, most of them have to be replaced because people come along & smash them up...

so i walk away feeling disappointed & annoyed with myself... i should have just left it alone... is it better to know or live in the wonderland? but what if the truth was far better that anything you could imagine... i suppose thats the risk we take & have to live with.


Thursday, April 15, 2010

[ FREE children's museum passes! ]



sooooooo... my kids love going to museums, i've just found out about this & am very excited! it's the association of children's museums reciprocal program (ACM).

basically if you buy an annual family membership that costs around $130 (which is tax-deductible) at any children's museum that participates in this program you'll get free admission to all the others!

me being the suspicious person that i am (must be the italian in me!!) made a few phone calls to try & find a catch! but as long as you check with the museum you are buying the membership from that they are in the program & your pass has ACM on it somewhere, either printed or a sticker all the other museums should allow at least 4 people from your household in for FREE! music to my ears!!

& there are around 165 nationwide you'll have access to!

you can see who participates here:

http://www.childrensmuseums.org/visit/reciprocal.htm#acmreciprocalprogramparticipants

& if this is one of those things that everyone already knew about... why didn't you tell me!!?!


Tuesday, April 13, 2010

[ power up ]


sooooooo... my laptop is getting old :( it wasn't really mine, my husband, mike bought it ~ when apple made the white macbooks black ~ yay!! black is my most favorite colour in all the world,  & yes black is a colour* in my eyes, before anyone starts that whole arguement!

when my son, oscar, was learning his colours, he's went from calling everything blue to recognising red, green, brown. I remember pointing to black and asking him what colour this is & he said it's mum!!

well i started borrowing the laptop more & more... & now it's mine (said in a very evil way with a laugh at the end!)

oh but it has suffered... my boys have pulled it off the table more than once, the camera no longer works & is VERY choosey about what cd it will allow you to see. but whenever my boys do something like that really it's my fault... if i were a laptop i wouldn't want to be left unattended with them!

but... i do love this machine... & now i'm doing my most favorite thing at the moment... sitting in borders, with a cup of coffee writing this blog, with flynn asleep in the stroller. it's a lovely hour... if i were a cat i'd purr. only downside is... the battery doesn't last very long, even the new one i bought... i think there is something working over time inside judging from how hot it gets & the loud whirring sound! so i bring the power adapter with me & there are seats near power points. but just like anything... these get abused... there's one guy over there now with 4 things plugged in... taking up 2 sets of plugs. i wouldn't be surprised if he pulls out an iron & starts doing his shirts!

i'm going to have to start bringing a power strip with me!

*my dad reads my blog & commented on how my english has turned american! so i have tried to turn it back especially for him!


Thursday, April 8, 2010

[ sonic ]



sooooooo... the boys & i went on a road trip. it was coming up to lunch time & i was really really hoping that there would be a wegmans on route...  but my tom tom couldn't find one...

the usual signs went sailing past.... mc d's, exxon, wendy's etc etc... then i spied one for sonic ~ i remember a couple of people telling me how good it was & how everything was delivered on roller skates! i thought the boys would denitely get a kick out of that & me too for that matter!

so we pull off the road & park up. there was a place to eat outside & we perused the menu board. my first question: what are tots?? i've lived here for 10 years & my only recollection of tots was it being mentioned on napeoleon dyamite. i would have skipped the whole tot thing ~ but i had read it aloud & oscar 4, wanted to know what they were ~ on repeat mode...

i look around the only other people there are 2 army guys who inform me that they are like hash browns.

ready to order! i press the button & read off what we want. while we wait i explain the whole roller skate thing to the boys & they are getting excited.

the place starts to fill up... strangely...all the guys were ordering with their legs really wide apart to get lower to the place where you speak... oscar keeps shouting look that guy is doing the splits & that one too...

our order is walked over to our table... my boys look at me like i'm crazy!! i asked where the skates were & am told this is her first week, but there is a guy inside who has a pair & she'll send him out ~ cool!! not so cool... i have no fork to eat my salad, yes i am one those crazy people that eats salad at a fast food place!! there doesn't appear to be a door in for non-staff... so after hestiating a bit i press the order button again...

another girl walks out & says that one of the wheels on his skates is loose & he's trying to fix it... is this going to get any harder...

of course it is!! less than one second after the door closes behind her oscar wants ketchup please mom, ketchup, ketchup please, ketchup mom, i need ketchup... pleeeease. i have to press the order button again... bet they're loving us inside!!

someone else walks out with the ketchup. then... & i need to do a ta-da here!! this guy comes whooshing round our table on skates!!! YEAH!!! he asks if we need anything else... the boys start doing a continuous scream as loud as they can!! sorry everyone trying to have a quiet lunch ~ hahahaha!!

& they scream everytime they saw that guy from then on!! excellent!

i really wanted to go potty!  but was too embarrassed to ask anyone if they knew where the restrooms were & there was noway i was pressing that button again!

personally i found the whole experience pretty awkward! but i'll give them 11 out of 10 for effort!








Wednesday, April 7, 2010

[ what a pong! ]


sooooooo... finally we have this beautiful spring weather! ~ once more we can enjoy being outside watching nature burst into life! literally... i swear the tree in our garden got blossoms in under 2 days! it was like popcorn!

so why oh why does this have to be ruined but that disgusting smell of yuck yuck yucky mulch??!!

as soon as the weather gets nice steaming truck loads get delivered everywhere & every inch of earth is covered... tree bases turn into mulch volcanoes... flower beds into seas of the stuff! it's an obsession!!

the concoction smells like it's made up of hippo & baboon pee infused with lizard poop!! (no i'm not familiar with any of those!)

my friend basit would say it's because my nose is too big!! but i have a few things to say to that but will limit them to 2:

1 pot calling the kettle black

2 & it takes one to know one ~ seriously!!!

apparently ~ sour mulch smells like vinegar, ammonia, sulfur or silage. GOOD mulch smells like freshly cut wood or has the earthy smell of a good garden soil. mmmmmm ~ no-one appears to be using the good stuff!

mulch that is not aged properly will also have a problem with smelling bad, as organic matter decomposes it gives off heat and it will also give off an odor. if there is too high of a nitrogen to carbon ratio then you will get a foul odor from the mulch as it ages in the pile.

most of the really cheap ones cut corners to produce the mulch by using some shredded bark and adding sawdust to the mix, then add some sort of nitrogen source to it from either animal waste or solids from a municipal sewage treatment plant ~ nice!

isn't the states where artificial flavors & smells were invented?? add some to this stuff pleeeease!!!



*COCOA MULCH can be toxic to dogs

Monday, April 5, 2010

[ back in the saddle! ]



sooooooo... i was at the gym a while ago! (ha ha ha ~ i have to laugh because i really don't like going to the gym, a very clever sales person talked me into buying a membership. i didn't buy it right away of course! as i have to agonize these sorts of decisions to death... usually with my husband, mike, who is amazingly patient. mike said go for it (i think he was going for the quickest way to shut me up!!)

i obviously had all the right intentions of going, of course! but to me the allure of the gym is close to cleaning the litter tray....

anyway i started going... armed with the first ipod ever made... which now resembles a white brick, i began the workout that my super duper trainer had 'crafted' for me, which comes with the whole membership deal. (basically i told anthony i don't want anything wobbling that shouldn't & a smaller butt please!! i was going to write arse but i know my dad reads this)

i very closely resemble bridgette jones in the gym scene of the movie... & for about 3 days after i walk like the tin man from the wizard of oz.

well one day... i climbed up onto the 'assisted chin up machine of torture' ~ i had not completely zipped up the pouch containing my 20lb ipod... i start pulling myself up & said ipod bursts through the zip opening & is swinging by the headphones that are planted in my ears... i... stupidly try to grab it, taking my arm off the handle & of course loose balance, no headphones could take that weight so the ipod crashed to the floor, the weight of the platform pushed me up & i did the most ungracefully twisted fall. this happened in stages... the guy next to me said are you ok 3 times & with increasing concern! i landed on my neck & shoulder with my legs still stuck on the platform in the air.

i wasn't sure if i was hurt or not but the sheer embarrassment made me rise... in which time a team of people had congregated to make sure i was ok... all i could say was 'my ipod!' then with the insistence of seeing a nurse i started crying... not really because of the pain, i just wished it hadn't happened & the ground would swallow me up, plus i'm delicate flower you understand!

i ran off to the rest rooms, washed my face... & thought i can either run off home or pull myself together, get back & finish my workout. so with head held high, i strode back, got round the corner to find in front of 'the' machine a guy telling the story... 'yeah she went down like a ton of bricks, i don't know how she did it.... bla bla bla!!' that finished me off!! WHAH!!

& i have not been back... (apart from one time where i got yelled at by 2 angry girls, but that's a whole other blog right there)

this all happen june 25th 2009 ~ & the reason i remember that is because that was the day that michael jackson died (& lets not forget farrah fawcett) ~ i told a friend of mine the story & she thought i must have been distracted from seeing the death of jacko on a screen & that had caused the fall!

but i am pleased to report, i'm back!! i treat the machine with the utmost respect, basically i'm a bit scared of it, seriously, i didn't realize how dangerous those machines are. i unfortunately still have wobbly bits & a butt bigger than i want ~ but lets face it anthony's a great personal trainer not a magician!! & i should go more than once a week!! whatever!!


Sunday, April 4, 2010

[ hemingway ]



sooooooo... i wish our old cat, hemingway, could speak!






Saturday, April 3, 2010

[ magnolia ]






Friday, April 2, 2010

[ stupid elmo! ]




sooooooo... a lovely friend of mine bought the boys passes to sesame place for their birthdays. (it's a sesame street theme park, with lots of water play) i confess i have been i think twice... but yesterday, i thought, what a beautiful day it will be today & asked the boys if they wanted to go! i swear they would have done back flips if they could! they were MEGA MEGA excited!! they call it elmo slides.

so most of yesterday was spent discussing this adventure, what we were going to take with us, what we were going to ride on etc etc & that it was going to be tomorrow... you have to go to sleep all night first & then we'll go!



the first thing that comes out of their mouths this morning was 'we've been asleep can we go to elmo slides now!!'

we packed towels, swimming trunks, sunscreen, hats & 9 million other random objects, items of clothing, most probably a piece of furniture or 2 (well it just felt like that when i lifted this enormous bag!)

oscar didn't complain about having to find his shoes & even put them on his feet without being prompted, they weren't on the right feet... but i appreciated the effort!

i hopped online to check the address & somehow stumbled on the page that said it doesn't open until may!!!!! i thought no this can't be true, it's easter for goodness sake!! so i rang them & they're closed till may...

it's 9 o'clock in the morning, i have 2 hyped up little boys & i am about to burst their bubble. i call them over & break the news... flynn, 2,  took it remarkably well... oscar, 4, started screaming & crying... then flynn says 'can we go to elmo slides now!' it's going to be a loooooooooooong day!

i ask them if they would like to go to the zoo instead... flynn says yes, but oscar isn't having any of it... i rattle off a list of places & the only one that sparked a twinkle in his eye was chuck e cheese... so off we go... it's a GORGEOUS day & we are going to be stuck indoors in an arcade like setting...

i really dislike that place... & here's why...

my friends came to visit me from MA, yes chris & helen that's you! helen had to go into the city & i took chris, his 2 children & my 2 children to chuck e cheese. this was in the days when flynn was still in the stroller that the car seat clicks on. often when i'd lift flynn out the stroller would fall back from the weight of my overloaded bag. i'd been in a hurry that morning & surprise surprise couldn't find my car keys... so i grabbed the spare & off we went.

we'd played & played on everything, had the yukky food & were more than ready to leave... i looked in the cup holder of the stroller for the car key & it wasn't there... chris in the meantime was putting ski suits on his children in anticipation of going out in the cold to the car. i pull my bag apart looking for the key ~ it's NO WHERE!!! i'm going hot & cold all at once. oscar starts crying because he is so tired & over excited... i asked a member of staff if anyone has handed in a key... nothing. i start looking under rides for it, getting carpet burn on my cheek... i am now panicking!! where the hell is it!!! strangers are going through my bag trying to help me...

then a cheerful chuck e cheese lady comes over & says with a beaming smile, i haven't found your key but i have found LOADS of tokens... mmmmmm!! not helping me... i felt like saying 'great!! go have fun on the rides then!!'

i suddenly thought... what if someone took my key... & my car... but it was still there!

chris's children had super rosy cheeks from wearing their outdoor clothes, oscar's crying had got 10 times worse... & flynn was starting up too...

then this really really nice lady, with about 6 children,  took over & said listen i'll give you a ride home & you can get your spare... so that's what happened. arhhhhhhhhh!! what a wonderful person!!

i never found the key, i wonder where it is... a replacement costs $265

& ok ok... elmo's not stupid!!






























Thursday, April 1, 2010

[ april fool ]


sooooooo... i was dating a guy when i was in college who had planned a year long trip to australia before i'd met him... honestly it was BEFORE i met him!!!

there was this tv guide magazine in the uk, not sure if it's still around & he would religiously do the competition crossword. the prizes ranged from money, trips & furniture. well... me being the jokester that i was forged a winning letter announcing that he'd won a wonderful trip on the orient express! this was for himself & a guest, non-transferable & would take place when he'd already left for australia... i think i also put something about with his permission a film crew would like to film some of the trip for future publicity. oh how i giggled to myself when i dropped it in the post box.

well...he was staying in a bed-sit at his mom's house, he'd given up his apartment as he was about to go away for a year... i turn up around lunchtime of april 1st to a family meeting... (he was one of 6 children). i'm thinking what the heck is going on... !!my heart plummets when i realize it's over this letter... i had actually forgotten about it & certainly thought he would see straight through it!!!

he sees me,  takes me to a quiet room starts this whole monologue about how sorry he was because i would have been his guest on this amazing trip of a lifetime & how he'd been on the phone all morning with one of his brothers trying to sort something out, maybe he could get away with saying that his legal name was different....(so his brother could go)  he'd tried to change his airline ticket to australia (but thankfully wasn't able to...) he went on & on & on & on... & the more time that passed the more i didn't know how to break it to him that it was a joke...

his mom had got a bit worked up about it too & she was in a very fragile state ~ this definitely was not helping matters...

the whole thing completely changed from being this, what i thought, very funny prank to a nightmare... & still i kept quiet!! i started feeling slightly sick & promising myself i will never do anything like this again!!

finally...i couldn't take it anymore... i just blurted out... how sorry i was, it was meant to be a joke & not cause all this anguish to so many people! i begged forgiveness & swore my prankster days were over!

BUT the crazy thing was... he didn't believe me!! kept telling me to stop joking & being silly, apparently i wasn't helping the situation... oh man this was going rapidly from bad to worse!!! but it WAS me ~ believe me for goodness sake...

i had to go on & on for ages to convince him... & recite the letter word for word... needless to say it didn't go down very well with anyone... people were just staring at me with this semi angry semi pitiful look...

so of course i didn't joke like that again... until... oh the next year!! same boyfriend!! UNBELIEVABLE!!  before i moved to america i used to give blood regularly (the usa won't take foreigners blood so i've had to stop now). i got my boyfriend to come along & he got into it too ~ he had a rare blood group.

again i wrote a letter to him, from the local hospital, saying that their stocks were extremely low on that particular rare blood group & that they would appreciate it if he could come in & give some ~ i gave a time, ward name etc etc...

i remember returning home just as he's leaving the house... when i inquired where he was going he told me to give blood!! ARHHHHH!!!

needless to say... we're not together anymore & that i have grown up (just a bit) & do not perform these acts of merriment!

&... if he ever reads this... i am really sorry!